So it’s been a while.
Nearly four years, I think.
A lot’s changed.
If anyone is still reading this, you’re probably expecting an update.
This post, however, is going to be more personal.
This morning, I remembered who I am, for the first time in quite a while. I think I’ve turned a corner that I didn’t even realise was coming. As dramatic as this sounds, it’s important to me, so I’ve decided to write this post to remind myself of a few things, the next time I forget*.
- When choosing red lipsticks, go dark – think wine lips, but more deliberate
- Never giving up your childishness, not for anyone
- Remember what it’s like to feel invincible
- Family is everything – your solid base, your foundation. If that’s okay, you can deal with anything. If it isn’t, fix it, any way you can
- You know what makes you happy, and when you were happiest. There’s no reason you can’t have that again.
- Love him, by all means, but don’t let him make you miserable
- Spend more time with the people you like yourself around
- You do know how to look after yourself – do it
- Be kind
- Never underestimate the power of the history coursework playlist
I’m happy. I really am. The reason is fairly straightforward – I’ve made up with one of my best friends, and have seen my sister. I really do mean what I said about family, and it is the reason I’ve remembered who I am.
So, with all of my love to my family, especially my sister, and to Hannah, who remembers who I am even when I don’t ,
I guess I’m back.
P.S. There’s a song, for today, because this has always been me, more or less, and as a bonus is a fantastic song
*and also because of the nagging of a very dear friend, who has recently written a post about how awesome I am that made me cry.
Studio 60 on the Sunset Strip. The show The West Wing could have been. Aaron Sorkin’s 2006 offering, set behind the scenes of a live TV comedy sketch show (so, SNL basically) was cancelled after a single season. The blame for its demise can be placed on the debut of similar in subject matter only 30 Rock the same year, the expense of such an enormous production, or just the fact that it wasn’t good enough. Indeed, there is much criticism on the internet. It took the haters five years to move on (and only then because Sorkin incurred fresh wrath by making Newsroom). Nonetheless, I’m a big fan of those 22 episodes of television.
My tastes are perhaps a little niche. But any show willing to ditch the three main characters and dedicate an entire episode to reuniting Allison Janney and Timothy Busfield…
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I told you I’d be back!
And here I am.
So, first things first, le boy incident!
Well, twas a fairly light and moderately rainy Saturday morning …..
And a group of intrepid explorers were about to set off on their Duke of Edinburgh Bronze Expedition.
It would be a gruelling trek across the Yorkshire Dales, containing absolutely. no. singing. (At all. That is completely what happened. Nope. Zero singing. Nu-uh. There were no Queen, Disney and Road to EL Dorado repeats. Stop asking questions!)
And camping. There was to be camping.
Anyway, when we had walked a ridiculous distance and reached the campsite and set up camp and cooked and all that palaver, all five of us piled into three-man tent to play cards and stuff. Also Truth or Truth (which is identical to Truth or Dare, except with no dares. I think you get the picture). Well, it transpired that one of the boys had a crush on me. The phrase ‘is there any point me asking you out?’ was used. To which the answer was, no, not really, you’re not my type.
So there you have it dear readers! There was a short boy thing that happened! And before you ask, we’re cool now.
I’m going to the fair with some friends tomorrow, then off to see my cousin’s concert Sunday night! So busy weekend, but BAnk Holiday Monday and I get to see my cousins, so yay.
Also so. much. WORK! Right now! I have pretty much zero free time any more! This is seriously affecting my lunchtime=emergency-homework-for-next-lesson-time-strategy!
OH and me and my cousin have started writing letters to each other because who doesn’t love getting things in the post? It’s great!
Also I spent about 45 minutes earlier trying to make a cup of tea properly, as opposed to the teabag-mug way. (This is England. We take our tea seriously. I fully expect to start a few arguments with this post).
So first – leaf tea. Yes. You heard me.
A family blend of leaf tea.
(It is not nearly as posh as it sounds – it basically consists of buying a bag of Earl Grey leaf tea and a bag of Yorkshire Gold leaf tea and pouring them both into a leaf-tea-tin because the bag sizes mean the proportions are right)
Anyway, so then the leaf tea goes in a tea-pot and you boil a kettle-full of water. Then the bit everyone can agree on – add the water to the tea. Leave it for a while (during which time I spent scouring the house for a cup, not a mug, and saucer which were packed away in the most obscure place!) then pour it through a tea-strainer (another 15 minutes trying to find that) into the mug. Milk after. Stir with a spoon, then drink.
So there you have it – leaf-tea in a cup, milk in 2nd, no sugar.
What about you? Since tea is something of a touchy subject around here, please keep the violence to a minimum?
You may be wondering why the sudden tea stuff, and well.
You remember my …issue … with finding it impossible to not put Good Omens in my English? Well, it’s kind of … a little … turned into … well …..
So my English might end up being a dissertation on tea ……. Featuring Crowley and Aziraphale. Oops.
Speaking of, more songs for Eleanor! (Looks like that’ll be a regular thing … both oops and sorry!)
I found it on YouTube! I mean it’s a 10/Rose vid which makes me cry anyway, and the song and I love it and just A/C and yeah you made me cry again so well done you.
(Terminal Star by Karine Polwart)
Also this gave me feels because of A/C, but also because of Destiel and Cas and general utter, utter misery caused by my favourite ships.
(Rosi Golan – Hazy)
And then there’s this which just made me die of tears and misery and oh. Just oh.
oh. oh. oh.
The pain. and lack of words. I am made of tears now.
(Keaton Henson – You)
If you must wait,
Wait for them here in my arms as I shake
If you must weep,
Do it right here in my bed as I sleep
If you must mourn, my love
Mourn with the moon and the stars up above
If you must mourn,
Don’t do it alone
If you must leave,
Leave as though fire burns under your feet
If you must speak,
Speak every word as though it were unique
If you must die, sweetheart
Die knowing your life was my life’s best part
And if you must die,
Remember your life
Oh, you are
If you must fight,
Fight with yourself and your thoughts in the night
If you must work,
Work to leave some part of you on this earth
If you must live, darling one,
Well, if you haven’t all dissolved already, apologies.
Midsummer Night’s Dream rehearsals are going well, life continues as normal, if ridiculously more hectic than is usual, and my GCSEs (mostly mocks, thank god) are coming up soon!
Actual Science GCSEs on 16th of June though …..
Wish me luck!
If I can get my hands on a laptop and am not too caught up in the fair and everything, I’ll see you tomorrow!
If not, Monday.
Well hey there.
I dedicate this post to Eleanor, since she is the reason for it happening in the first place and it’s really pretty much solely directed at her.
But regardless, I’m (kinda) back!
From the depths of my recently re-instated Good Omens obsession.
So, back story!
GO has always been one of my favourite books, and fairly recently I leant it to the aforementioned Eleanor to read (before re-reading it myself, because really? Knowing the book? Who wouldn’t?) and since she loved it and I had rediscovered it’s magnificence, there has been somewhat of a downward spiral of discussion and fangirling going on – my endless apologies to the rest of my friends, particularly Elly, who has really no idea what’s going on.
Now, Good Omens synopsis time!
So, from the back of the book:
According to The Nice and Accurate Prophecies of Agnes Nutter, Witch (the world’s only completely accurate book of prophecies), the world will end on a Saturday. Next Saturday in fact. Just after tea …
So anyway it is this incredible book about a variety of things that is actually really hard to describe when you try, but stars, among others, Aziraphale (An Angel, or Principality) and Crowley (an Angel who did not so much Fall as Saunter Vaguely Downwards). They are amazing. (And lend themselves brilliantly to Supernatural crossovers …. but anyway). ‘Many people, meeting Aziraphale for the first time, formed three impressions:
- that he was English,
- that he was intelligent, and
- that he was gayer than a tree full of monkeys on nitrous oxide.’
Crowley, on the other hand, well. ‘Crowley had dark hair, and good cheekbones, and he was wearing snakeskin shoes, or at least presumably he was wearing shoes, and he could do really weird things with his tongue. And, whenever he forgot himself, he had a tendency to hiss.
He also didn’t blink much.’
Well regardless, they are fabulous and impossible not to ship, especially since they constantly refer to each other as ‘dear’ and ‘angel’ respectively.
And it’s written by Neil Gaimen and Terry Pratchett, both of whom are amazing authors.
And it is just one of my all time favourite books, and I’m currently trying incredibly hard (and failing) to keep it out of my English assessment. It really isn’t helping that we’re currently studying ‘Heaven, Hell and Purgatory’ in R.E. The amount of Supernatural and Good Omens I am having to push out of my head!
Well the point of this post was to send these three pieces of music that just constantly remind me of Crowley and Aziraphale (I mean there are others. SO. MANY. OTHERS. But these three matched the mood at the time.) to Eleanor. So, without further ado, the first of our pieces (with a quote! From their very last appearance in the book.):
They went to the Ritz again […]. And, […] for the first time ever, a nightingale sang in Berkeley Square.
That certain night, the night we met
There was magic abroad in the air
There were angels dining at the Ritz
And a nightingale sang in Berkeley Square
Also then there was this, which applies to them as a unit really, not so much one to the other and kind of made me sad and happy at the same time (E-nor: cos of the Purgatory thing? HOW LONG MUST I BE HUNG UP ON THAT?!)
This is also Supernatural applicable, which makes it doubly sad.
And then there’s this, and I’m not sure where it fits except that it popped into my head whilst I was finding these and I couldn’t take it out, so if anybody can rationalise it, I owe them!
Well I think that’s it for now.
So there you are Eleanor! Supernatural/Good Omens feels and random perfection.
If I find more, you can have them.
For everyone else, I would 100% recommend this beyond-belief book.
Although your life will be ruined.
Apparently there’s a copy in the Vatican Library. It’d be nice to think so.
It is incredibly dear to me, and I do treasure the increasing beat-up-ness of my copy.
Although Arizaphale is forcing me to say ‘dear’ near-constantly.
And I am turning into an eclectic mix of Aziraphale and Crowley.
But hey – ineffable, eh?
Well then. In the style of Crowley, Flash Bastard and Serpent of Eden,
P.S. A boy asked me out. I said no. More details next time?
I am tempted to just start posting things that I want to say to various people straight up on Tumblr without any dedication or explanation and see if anyone guesses. Hey, it might make me feel better.
Also a random person reblogged my last post for no apparent reason. Bruno1011, if you’re reading, hello!
The Musketeers tonight! Tres excited (see what I did there? Hehe I really need to stop laughing at my own jokes) – if you are not watching it WHY? Also start. NOW.
So. Much. Homework.
Last day of half-term! BUT only a six week term so yay! Not too long until Easter and Strasbourg trip and sleep! Yay! I really shouldn’t be this tired coming out of a half term holiday. I should definitely sleep more ……
The President of the United States of America ladies and gentlemen:
The Sochi Winter Olympics are over! Ah, they shall be forever remembered as the gayest Olympics of our time (because seriously the Romans were literally wrestling naked so I think they win overall).
Has anyone seen the trailer for the Postman Pat film?!? Oh my god.
Musketeers is on now so I shall have to leave you.
Adios amigos and indeed,
I vanished again! So sorry – it’s been what? Two weeks? Seems like all I do now is apologise for forgetting 😀
You have my express permission to spam my comments viciously next time I leave – that’ll probably remind me.
What news, what news ….. oh yes!
I got a part in Midsummer Nights Dream! I shall be playing Oberon, King of the Fairies. (hehehe)
So basically I get to have minions. This makes me happy.
Oh! And I found this:
Also I feel very proud because I found some Ghostfacers Easter Eggs on my Supernatural DVDs (not that they were that hidden …. shut up, I’ve never found Easter Eggs before!)
Speaking of which, has anyone ever gone to the Vogue website and pressed the ‘up up down down left right left right’ arrow keys and then typed ‘b a’ and kept pressing a? I don’t know who the hell discovered it (and how? I mean seriously what) but the person who made it is AWESOME.
Also I found a thing on Tumblr that made me fall off my chair twice ……..
It is impossible not to love Tom Hiddleston. I mean LOOK:
Okay I simply cannot take anymore of his amazingness.
Enjoy my friends!
Since it’s half term and I FINALLY have my laptop back, there should be a less …scattered … post tommorrow.
in the finest British traditions,
Sorry for dropping out on you, but I STILL haven’t got my laptop back (how much longer will this torture go on?) so have ‘borrowed’ mum’s without telling her.
I have news!
1) It’s my sister’s birthday today! She is 11 so Happy Birthday to her
2) WE FINALLY SOLD THE HOUSE! So I am officially moving! We have to move be Easter so that’s going to be hectic so sorry if there is a minimum of posting! (I am not sure how I feel about this …)
3) But since we’re moving house, more money so I get a new (functional) laptop! Yay!
4) Also getting a new phone. Possibly Sunday, possibly next week – I DON’T KNOW! But I am so happy because I have an iPhone 3 which is endlessly annoying.
5) So we’re going to York tomorrow to get my sister’s birthday presents and stuff so that’ll be fun.
6) I am currently lying in front of the Aga on a laptop absolutely exhausted and my brain is in hibernation so I don’t know what’s going on with this list
7) I auditioned for the role of Helena in A Midsummer Nights Dream earlier this evening and I have never done anything remotely act-y in my life so wish me luck!
8) God, I’m tired!
9) Johnny Depp has never won an Oscar. What?! (Also Alex Kingston IS 51! And it’s pronounced GAY-tiss! Who knew?)
10) I am having a big sleepover in February half-term which I am very excited about which is going to include me introducing my friends to The Road to El Dorado and The Emperor’s New Groove (which they have never seen. Travesty!) and also mattress surfing and general bidding my house farewell and also my cousin is coming to stay which I am VERY excited about!
That was a list….
Too tired to round this off, so you will just get
Before you ask, yes, I will get round to doing part 2 of the Empty Hearse thing and a general overview of the whole of Sherlock thus far.
But for today …..
THE A-Z OF BOOK STUFF!
AUTHOR YOU’VE READ THE MOST BOOKS FROM:
Terry Pratchett. He’s written a lot of books okay and I have read nearly all of them!
BEST SEQUEL EVER:
DON’T MAKE ME DO THIS!
Raising Steam by Terry Pratchett and Allegiant by Veronica Roth
DRINK OF CHOICE WHILE READING:
E-READER OR PHYSICAL BOOK?
Physical book, but I like e-readers too
FICTIONAL CHARACTER YOU PROBABLY WOULD HAVE ACTUALLY DATED IN HIGH SCHOOL:
AL OF THEM (hehe)
GLAD YOU GAVE THIS BOOK A CHANCE:
Larklight Series (thanks George)
HIDDEN GEM BOOK:
It has been brought to my attention that not everyone in the universe has read Good OMens by Terry Pratchett and Neil Gamien so does that count? (Go read it. NOW.)
IMPORTANT MOMENT IN YOUR READING LIFE:
Learning to read, discovering my very first Terry Pratchett book (seriously, those books are so much a part of my personality its weird)
Raven Boys by Maggie Steifvater
KINDS OF BOOKS YOU (GENERALLY) WON’T READ:
Non-fiction. Other than that, I read pretty much anything.
LONGEST BOOK YOU’VE READ:
Umm maybe most of War and Peace? I don’t know!
MAJOR BOOK HANGOVER BECAUSE OF:
oooh, well The Fault In Our Stars obviously, Home by Nicola Davies, The Extraordinary Adventures of Alfred Kropp by Rick Yancey, basically any book with an unwritten sequel. OH and of course The Boy in the Striped Pajamas by John Boyne because who the hell DOESN’T have a book hangover after that?
NUMBER OF BOOKCASES YOU OWN:
Umm maybe 2 I think but they are all double-stacked and lying down on top and in piles all over my floor so I should probably get some more bookcases ….
ONE BOOK YOU HAVE READ MULTIPLE TIMES:
One book? Hmmm … Pride and Prejudice (skipping the bit in the middle where nothing much happens – shh!)
PREFERRED PLACE TO READ:
QUOTE THAT INSPIRES YOU/GIVES YOU ALL THE FEELS FROM A BOOK YOU’VE READ:
This isn’t my favourite, but it was the first one I could think of off the top of my head:-
(Also this, which is neither inspirational or sad, just Order of the Phoenix reminded me –
“Is it true that you shouted at Professor Umbridge?”
“You called her a liar?”
“You told her He Who Must Not Be Named is back?”
“Have a biscuit, Potter.” )
Not starting reading Harry Potter sooner
SERIES YOU STARTED AND NEED TO FINISH (ALL BOOKS ARE OUT IN SERIES):
The Divergent series (I’m in the middle okay!)
THREE OF YOUR ALL-TIME FAVORITE BOOKS:
Good Omens by Terry Pratchett and Neil Gaimen
The Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy (The increasingly inaccurately named trilogy in five parts) by Douglas Adams
The Chaos Walking Trilogy by Patrick Ness
UNAPOLOGETIC FANGIRL FOR:
Any Terry Pratchett book, Good Omens, Hitchhikers, LOTR, basically anything I love 😀 I don’t tend to apologise for my fangirling.
VERY EXCITED FOR THIS RELEASE MORE THAN ALL THE OTHERS:
The next/last Heroes of Olympus book by Rick Riordan
WORST BOOKISH HABIT:
Using books as bookmarks for other books. I once accidentally made a 6-book-high tower of books I was reading by using them all as bookmarks for each other.
X MARKS THE SPOT: START AT THE TOP LEFT OF YOUR SHELF AND PICK THE 27TH BOOK:
The Boy In The Striped Pajamas by John Boyne
YOUR LATEST BOOK PURCHASE:
More Than This by Patrick Ness
ZZZ-SNATCHER BOOK (LAST BOOK THAT KEPT YOU UP WAY LATE):
More Than This by Patrick Ness (I bought it and finished it in one day – well two since it was 3 am of the next day by the time I’d finished)
So in other news a random guy came to the door I had to go do the thing where I smush my face up to the window in the room next to the front door to try and see who it is and I have no idea who it is and they didn’t come in a car or I can’t see one and I’m home alone so I’m a little freaked out ……..
UPDATE: I have retreated to the kitchen and am making no noise and pretending I don’t exist in the hope that he will take the hint and go away.
UPDATE #2: I just went to check. He’s still there. What do I do?!?
UPDATE #3: So he has gone. The mysterious man at the door has gone. I guess we will never know what he wanted or where he went …..
Also I was scrolling through Tumblr all casual and drinking tea out of my Doctor Who mug and I saw this:
When people think the only fandoms that exist on Tumblr are Doctor Who, Sherlock, and Supernatural
#they’re kind of like the big three greek gods of tumblr though#sherlock is zeus because sherlock’s a pretentious bastard most of the time #doctor who is poseidon because THERE IS NOTHING BUT TEARS #and supernatural is hades because you’re literally in hell half the time
What does that make The Avengers?
The adopted one.
And I got to the end and I LITERALLY SPAT TEA ALL OVER MY LAPTOP and now half the keys aren’t working and the worst part is this isn’t even the first time this has happened.
Hmm, well I think that’s it for today! I keep re-watching Monty Python and Morecambe and Wise sketches, so tomorrow will be a general comedy fest for you all 😀
See you then!
Just a quick note to say I FINALLY got around to watching the latest Supernatural episode Sharp Teeth and bacially
‘someone’s gotta be around to tell this story, and who better than you?’
Excuse me while I go cry in a corner.